And then there were 3

I saw on the news that a Long Island beach had to close because of a shark sighting 

Apparently 3 of Jaw’s cousins decided to come to shore and say hello 

So people ran afraid of what might happen 

Yet the ocean is where the sharks live! 

It really shouldn’t be a scary surprise to humans

And so I wonder if anyone ever put on the thinking cap of the shark 

For example, what if the shark said

‘Mayday mayday mayday!! Humans invading our home!!! Get them OUT!!!’

Which is why they decided to bring out the big fins and collectively come together 

To make sure humans stay away 

Instead of being afraid of a shark sighting, humans should be more attentive to caring for the ocean 

Keeping it clean so that the sharks could have a lot of fresh ocean to swim in 

Without having to look for other things at the shore 

It could be that they went to shore in search of food and found humans with sunscreen invading their waters 

I’m not saying that people shouldn’t go to the beach, but I am saying that we need humans need to be more conscious and understand that we share this earth with other species 

I’m saying that we should be more caring and respectful of nature 

Because when we aren’t, the sharks literally just come after us to make sure that we stay back 

Let’s give nature the surprise of her life by showing love and respect, let’s take care of that which is around us without tearing things apart 

In understanding that we live in a shared earth space, we move forward in conscientious decisions fully aware that we can simply affect things for the greater good 

And there is nothing wrong with being good… 

Bionica

Because we ALL matter

I was talking to my friend earlier and she mentioned the stress felt by the civil unrest that is currently going on 

She is friends with a lot of brothers in blue and went on to say that all lives matter 

And I just couldn’t let it go 

Because of the simple truth that all lives matter, activists have come together to make sure this is more than words on paper 

Because all lives matter, we need to ensure that justice is also brought forth against the injustices committed against black people 

If Breonna Taylor were white, you better believe that the people who took her life would have been brought to justice 

It’s a human right that all people deserve and yet in 2020 people of color are denied this for some reason 

And it is exhausting to still have to explain that yes I am a woman, I am black and I am human

This should never be an issue 

But it is 

I’m so over this 

We are all human and should be treated justly 

Money, titles, politics and color should not be an issue

Why have so many people been shot at and lost their life for doing nothing while being black?

Because the justice system simply sees color 

Because the justice system gives privilege in looking the other way when it comes to crimes committed against people of color 

It’s about our human rights 

If it were white kids locked up in cages there would be a huge riot about child abuse 

But these kids have color so no one says anything 

Because all lives matter the same justice that supports white lives should support all lives and bring it all to light 

It’s not about favoritism 

It’s about being human 

It’s about educating yourself about what’s right 

My friend didn’t even know about Breonna Taylor 

No, she doesn’t live under a rock but she didn’t know 

Perhaps because the news outlets don’t give enough coverage about the injustices being done 

Except when it’s a riot and then you can’t look away 

The point of the protests was to bring forth justice ignited by George Floyd 

They were meant to change the world for the better because we all matter

Instead people felt pressure and did what they thought was justice for one man 

When so many other people of color need justice too 

It’s not about having a protest for each black person that has been wronged 

It’s about changing things so that the same measure of justice that is applied to a white person may also be applied to people of color because we all matter 

If there were stricter laws in regards to applying force and the regard for life, Elijah McClain would still be playing the violin to animals at a shelter 

Because anyone with an ‘issue’, that is armed would think twice before harming anyone including a person of color because the eyes of justice would be covered as she is rightfully represented in mythology as we all deserve justice regardless of what we look like  

In 2020 I had to explain to my friend that this is an actual thing 

I told her that as a black woman and she cut me off saying that I’m beautiful and that right there is part of the problem 

Latinos are just as guilty of this systemic racism

By my friend mentioning beauty it’s almost to counteract my being black when being bonita o fea has nothing to do with the conversation 

We need to teach people all over that skin difference in skin color is just that-difference of skin color 

It doesn’t make anyone more or less human because we are all the same

Those adjectives that follow morena pero… need to stop because they aren’t making things any better 

Latinos need to come face to face with the fact that yes you’re black, you’re indigenous and probably white but that’s the magic that makes you who are 

It’s not something to feel shame for because when it is things get complicated like it’s down to choosing sides of who you want to be with 

And humanity should never come to that 

Vanilla and Chocolate are just as delicious together as they are individually 

Never make anyone choose because flavor is flavor and it’s all fantastic 

Bionica

Bearing it All

Sometimes when I write I feel like I’m baring it all for everyone to see

When you’re physically naked it’s like ok well that’s what it is 

But when it’s all emotional–there is just something else there 

Can swirl the butterflies a bit-yes it could be that I just made that up 

But here’s to swirling the butterflies and being a little naked 

Unzipping the jacket that covers the heart… 

Directed to a certain someone that shall remain nameless–

It’s something that I may not admit to you ever 

But maybe I did just fall in love with you after it was all over 

See I felt so many things at once 

It was a wave of emotions and something new that I couldn’t quite process yet

In my mind I had to wait 

I had to have more physical experiences with you 

Not just messages and FaceTime calls 

And when I was with you I felt loved 

Thinking about it now it was almost like a rom-com and we were the main characters 

The two that people are always rooting for because it seems so right 

But though it did 

My mind worked over time and just questioned things 

Asking myself ‘can this really be?’

Perhaps it could have 

It really could have 

But at a slower pace 

To really see how things could be 

But then life happened and the messages became less and less 

To the point that what I sent wasn’t lost in space, just left unanswered 

And I would have completely understood if you would have told me that you met someone 

I would have sent you well wishes because you’re great and you deserve it 

But you didn’t say anything 

And I respected and still do respect your silence 

With admiration for the relationship you have now 

Because I really do want you to be happy 

I feel that I could tell you I love you looking you straight in the eyes 

Not because I want you to overthink your relationship or push me away completely 

But because I genuinely want you to love 

To have that beautiful relationship that sprouts when two people meet and work together 

To make things better, learn from each other and continue growing every day in love and so many other good things 

However I won’t say that to you 

I won’t say anything at all 

I’ll let my words stay on a page 

Maybe say them one day, imagining that they reach your ears 

And that you know that I want you to be happy 

Feeling the love vibes that I’m sending you 

Knowing that its a different friendship between me and you…

Bionica 

Life in Numbers

Sometime ago in high school I remember that I got the number 11 in numerology which equals 2 when added together meaning that this would be my second reincarnation 

I’m not sure too much about reincarnation but I recently began to think about my present life 

I wondered what happened in the past life if there is one to get me to where I am today 

I thought about abundance of money and wondered if Kylie Jenner was giving off the best vibes ever to be who she is in this lifetime 

Or that kid that is apparently making a lot of 0s off his Youtube account and he’s about 6 or 7

But the more I thought about it 

The more I realized that I do have an amazing life 

See everything that happened to get me here was crucial in shaping the person that I am today 

Without having endured the things I have, would I be able to say that I would feel the way that I do today?

There are things that I am currently learning from and all in all it is an experience 

Another one to mold me and teach me 

So as I think back, it could be that perhaps my past life if there was one was pretty darn fine 

Oh and then my other friend said that the double digits ‘son numeros mayores y no se suman…’ (are numbers that aren’t meant to be added but to stay as they are)

Well if that’s the case, I still feel like I have learned a lot because of where I am today 

Keeping me grounded and happy, continuously learning 

So then I wonder, what about the Dalai Lama? Does he keep reincarnating as a Dalai Lama because this man is super spiritual always giving off good vibes and stars…

What constitutes as good enough in this life? I think it’s all about the ego and separation 

Knowing that we are nothing and the earth is everything 

Knowing that we are all the same although different in essence 

With the common purpose to be good humans that make things better not only for ourselves but for everyone 

It’s about sharing and teaching 

Learning what you can and giving what you can 

Because we are all part of this quilt that simply put may have different threads from different places, with the goal of offering collective warmth

Am I on to something?

Not sure ,I’ll let you decide… 

-Bionica

Just Wear It

So the new norm is that you have to wear a mask pretty much everywhere you go 

But although it’s something that has been happening for the past 3 months

I still can’t get used to it 

Having my face covered as I breathe in my own hot breath while picking up bread and cereal at Shoprite isn’t all that fun 

But I do it, because the CDC is as moody as ever and is forever changing their mind

One day you hear the virus lasts days on surfaces and a few weeks later they it doesn’t 

Who does all that and why?

It’s annoying and I’m over it 

But not to the point that I’m going to go out to the supermarket without my mask 

See the way I see it, it’s somehow better to be safe and prevent 

The one thing that I can be sure of is that my mask keeps foreign germs at bay 

And for the girl that has bus pants to go to Shoprite a la Dr. Sheldon B Cooper 

Well it’s a thing I’m going to do just to be extra careful 

And I completely understand that the body needs fresh air to thrive

I mean come on, trees are the lungs of the planet 

But for the moments that I’m inside I’ll wear the mask 

I think about how doctors wear them for surgeries that are hours long 

And I tip my hat to them 

It’s quite a feat 

But for the people that complain about having to wear the mask 

Well, if necessity is the mother of invention then why aren’t they inventing something good like more outdoor spaces with amazing air quality so people can shop outside, to keep enough of a distance that if they want they can forgo wearing a mask if they wish to do so safely 

I’m over hearing complaints with no attempts to a solution 

Get it together people 

Oh and am I the only weirdo that smiles under her mask while wearing dark sunglasses thinking that people can see me while trying to be friendly 

Happens all the time

Ah to be me…

Bionica 

To Learn

They say that every situation is meant to teach us something 

And so she began to wonder what it was that she was meant to learn 

From the person that made a constant effort to bring her down 

Her therapist told her it was domestic abuse–clearly

Yet she never saw it like so until someone else pointed it out 

And when she saw it for what it was her eyes opened to so many things 

One of them being the fact that just because something has been a generational pattern, it doesn’t mean that it’s right 

It doesn’t mean that she has to stay there and take the punches waiting to get hurt 

It also made her realize that she might be the only one seeing things for what they were 

That saying about standing for what you believe in even if it means standing alone 

It hit her hard like a baseball hits a fan in looking down at their phone knocking it out of their hand during a game, shocking them at the same time 

The main reason for this is because she really thought that others would see the abuse she was being put through 

Instead it was accredited to circumstances that came with a million and one excuses 

But that still didn’t make it right because putting a bandaid on a wound that needs stitches will do very little to make it better 

She was just seen as the odd one

The one that was making things difficult for her abuser 

And so she realized then that the black sheep in the family is a thing 

A real thing that occurs perhaps when someone brings something to light that others prefer to keep in the shadows 

But not her, she’s all about the light and making sure that the sun’s rays reach every nook and cranny 

That’s when the words of her therapist came in really loud like a gong at a temple early in the morning 

‘What are you going to do? Are you going to stay or are you going to leave?’

A difficult situation because she understood that if she left, it was very likely that she would leave everyone else behind 

Because at this point in time she stood alone and although she wasn’t lonely she was hurt that no one else was able to see what she saw 

She was hurt that so many were in agreement with her oppressor 

But maybe that’s what she was meant to learn 

That some people will hurt you and not care that they do 

That some people will never look inside and see why they do what they do 

That some people will constantly sweep things under the rug and walk over it like a mountain just the way Bart did once on the Simpsons 

Because for some it’s just easier to not see 

And as this happens, she knows that it’s her turn to go 

To be black sheep that’s happy to wander the meadow with peace of mind 

Not worrying about the ones she left behind.. 

Bionica

These Bosses...

I debated about this for a while 

Do I say anything or do I just put it off?

And by saying anything I mean write

So I decided to write

I have worked as a media producer in the radio field in the past 

Putting together a show for a host looking up as much information as possible 

Some days I found better things than others 

It was a day to day thing 

I couldn’t control what articles were going to come out in cosmo that the host would be fond of 

The host didn’t understand that 

The host wanted more effort on my behalf and it was my job to supply the demand 

It was a short shift of 4 hours that was 1 hour short of the commute I had to get there

Who in there right mind would do this?

Well a lot of people

See there is this thing about paying your dues and working your way up 

Apparently that’s also interwoven with being underpaid and it’s a known fact that is just accepted 

The employee does this willingly with the hopes to one day move up and do better 

I guess that many things in life are like this 

You take what you can get until you get to where you want to be 

And not all days were bad 

One of the perks was definitely meeting different people that came in for interviews 

A celebrity crush every once in a while with whom a selfie was granted 

Still I would have days in which I would ask myself what am I doing?

How is this helping me?

And then one day, I was let go 

The product of a company cutback 

It hurt a little, but it was for the best 

Because I just wasn’t going anywhere doing what I was doing 

I felt that I was putting in so much effort for someone else that wasn’t me 

And if I had worked on my personal projects the way I did as a producer

Well then things would have been slamming’ 

But I didn’t and the being let go turned out to be a good thing 

But not good enough because apparently I still hadn’t learned 

I was approached by the same host I worked for about 2 years after 

To produce from home and when asked I remember thinking ‘please don’t forget to pay me’ 

However I didn’t say anything 

I should have 

Because the host is as talented as the host is forgetful 

I was forgotten by this host that simply wanted my me to supply the demand 

Forgetting that my work adds a lot of value to her 

And would forget to pay me rather often and the point came in which I had to speak up 

Pointing out that there was a balance due of weeks and that I couldn’t continue to work without getting paid 

Instead of taking a step back to say, you’re right I’m sorry I haven’t been on top of things 

I got a ‘you know how I am all over the place’ 

It made me feel as if I was wrong in asking for that for which I worked for 

It made me question if I should have just kept on producing to be more understanding 

But I wasn’t wrong in doing so 

Another week came and I asked for a follow up payment that never came 

And neither did a message of acknowledgment that it was received 

That my work had any value 

I learned what I tried to hide 

That some people have no personal regard for others 

It’s all about what they can get for themselves

They choose with whom and when they want to communicate because it’s their game 

The ball is in there court and they decide who gets it 

And it sucks 

It really does because sometimes I would make excuses to try and understand 

But in reality, there is no excuse 

Being ignored by a supposed employer for asking that your work is valued 

Is completely wrong 

For the employer to act as if they can’t see or hear you is not ok 

It is not professional and shows disregard for human decency 

But not everyone will see it 

Some just see the limelight and not the shadows

But I’m sure I’m not the only one

Producers know, personal assistants know 

Some bosses are just selfish and inconsiderate 

But only the brave will dare to put on some Lizzo, break out the Coconut Oil 

To walk away from the horrible bosses and run to self love… 

Bionica