Her

The trip seemed rather uneventful 

They went up the elevator, spoke to a few people and back down again 

The door opened and as he went up the stairs he saw a girl to his left 

Something about her called him by name 

But he didn’t want to be the first one to say something, so he just smiled

A happy smile that he imagined said ‘hello, my name is… and I want to look into your eyes and hold your hand’

He wondered if she got all that from a the twinkle that for sure was in his eye 

And then as he walked towards the middle, she spoke to him 

It wasn’t like a song with melodic strings accompanying her voice 

It was simple and beautiful 

Because he could feel her energy radiating and warming him up as walked closer

She congratulated him on his work and he took her hands into his to say thank you 

When what he really wants to do was bring her close to him and see if he could somehow smell her hair, the hair that was tied up and away from her face 

As their hands touched he felt a shock, it was weird but good and he wondered if she did too 

Her image stayed with him as he made his way to the door 

And his brain kept replaying what just happened 

He wondered if perhaps he should have said something else 

Like may be asked her name and where she lived but that would all be too sudden 

So he thought that perhaps it should have been something more simple 

As he was lost in his thoughts, they were interrupted 

By a short girl with long blonde hair that was polite and eager at the same time 

At first he wasn’t sure of what he was hearing and when it finally registered he felt himself smiling 

On the inside as much as on the outside 

He was going to see her again 

The girl with the smile, the girl whose hands he just held hoping to know her name 

And so he went and fell in love with her eyes, with her smile and with her vibe 

There was something about her that he couldn’t exactly describe, but he felt it 

Before holding her close for the picture, he looked her up and down 

Taking her in, to make sure that he would be able to play it back later 

He was smooth and snaked his arms around her body and she fell into him 

It wasn’t weird, it just felt right 

He closed his eyes and he kissed her, staying there for a few seconds just right 

He could feel her smile, he could feel her warmth intermingling with his 

Almost becoming a part of each other 

But he didn’t think of it much then 

Yet it would be something that he would feel continuously 

Later learning of what it actually meant 

For him, for her, for them and everyone else… 

Bionica 

Bearing it All

Sometimes when I write I feel like I’m baring it all for everyone to see

When you’re physically naked it’s like ok well that’s what it is 

But when it’s all emotional–there is just something else there 

Can swirl the butterflies a bit-yes it could be that I just made that up 

But here’s to swirling the butterflies and being a little naked 

Unzipping the jacket that covers the heart… 

Directed to a certain someone that shall remain nameless–

It’s something that I may not admit to you ever 

But maybe I did just fall in love with you after it was all over 

See I felt so many things at once 

It was a wave of emotions and something new that I couldn’t quite process yet

In my mind I had to wait 

I had to have more physical experiences with you 

Not just messages and FaceTime calls 

And when I was with you I felt loved 

Thinking about it now it was almost like a rom-com and we were the main characters 

The two that people are always rooting for because it seems so right 

But though it did 

My mind worked over time and just questioned things 

Asking myself ‘can this really be?’

Perhaps it could have 

It really could have 

But at a slower pace 

To really see how things could be 

But then life happened and the messages became less and less 

To the point that what I sent wasn’t lost in space, just left unanswered 

And I would have completely understood if you would have told me that you met someone 

I would have sent you well wishes because you’re great and you deserve it 

But you didn’t say anything 

And I respected and still do respect your silence 

With admiration for the relationship you have now 

Because I really do want you to be happy 

I feel that I could tell you I love you looking you straight in the eyes 

Not because I want you to overthink your relationship or push me away completely 

But because I genuinely want you to love 

To have that beautiful relationship that sprouts when two people meet and work together 

To make things better, learn from each other and continue growing every day in love and so many other good things 

However I won’t say that to you 

I won’t say anything at all 

I’ll let my words stay on a page 

Maybe say them one day, imagining that they reach your ears 

And that you know that I want you to be happy 

Feeling the love vibes that I’m sending you 

Knowing that its a different friendship between me and you…

Bionica 

The One

Maybe it's just not for everybody
that one person that's supposed to be
your one true love

the one that you supposedly dreamed about
since the moment you were able to remember your dreams

Maybe it's just about momentary bouts of happiness
that different people are able to
fulfill at different moments

instead of that single one
there are probably a lot ones
times 5, 7 or 8 for all you know

the kind that are 'the one' for that specific moment
so that when you look back and remember
at that trial, tribulation or fun
you're able to smile
because that's just how it was supposed to happen

for the stories, the moments
for the lifetime of experience that
you just wouldn't be able to have
from just that 'one'

Because that's way better than none
Because that's what was just meant to be…
-Bionica

Sparks

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They had been together for about a year

His kisses on her lips 

Her hands interwoven between the short strand of his hair 

Caressing his neck with each breath 

As his hand rested on the small of her back 

A luscious routine of what would follow 

After their weekly dates

Sometimes at a diner

Sometimes at the park 

Sometimes at his place 

Where they would end up canoodling on his couch 

But for some reason 

All his great qualities weren't enough 

Sure he just happened to be 

One of the hardest working people she knew

A wonderful son, great friend 

And among other things 

An incredible lover 

But it still wasn't enough 

The sparks weren't there 

To send her to the moon each time they kissed

The butterflies hid somewhere 

And wouldn't even flinch 

Not at his words 

Not at his scent 

And certainly not at his touch 

She wondered why 

Always giving it another try 

Another chance to see 

If perhaps the butterflies would come out of hiding

And make it a party when their lips would meet

When she would hear the sound of his voice

Or see a message he had sent 

But all the sweet mornings 

Good afternoons 

And beautiful evenings they spent together 

They just weren't enough 

The sparks never came 

Things just weren't right

Those feelings were missing 

She did what she could 

But he hadn't understood 

That what she wanted the most 

Just wasn't there 

She didn't dare ask him what he felt 

He may have gotten used to her

To the timber of her voice

Her hands in his 

And everything in-between 

But she still needed more 

And hoped that one day 

He would see what she meant 

-Bionica

Not Quite Right

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It was just so romantic 

The way he leaned in to hold her

Her hand fit so well in his 

His scent was delicious and subtle 

He looked at her and he cared 

He really did 

He wanted to know 

What she was thinking 

What it was that she thought of him 

But she just couldn't 

She had to tell him

That he was the right one 

At least not for her

Not after that momentous kiss

The one they shared 

Under the night sky 

With the glare of the street lights 

And the glow of the cars that went by 

She just couldn't do it 

-Bionica