Peace of Mind

Last night my mom told me she was going to head out early 

Sometime around 9am to sign some papers as she would be a witness in an upcoming wedding 

I didn’t know about it and scheduled appointments beforehand 

And so I told her that if I were to accompany her, I would have to be back 11am 

To which she replied ‘so then just stay home’ 

It’s one of those replies that in between the lines really says ‘It would be nice if you cancelled your appointments so that you could come with and I wouldn’t have to go alone’

But the thing is that if I were to do such a thing, well it would really be so much more to endure 

Beginning with the questioning critique in regards to my choice in attire 

From that she would jump to the fact that I don’t wear makeup, surely followed up by a personal comparison of myself to someone else that to her is much more accomplished where to her I simply lack 

It gets exhausting and I can only sigh so much… 

So I just happily refrain from attending many events

It is a choice that perhaps few may understand, but my peace of mind comes first 

I don’t know what others think but I do have a feeling that they don’t really know the power of words 

For it is way too often that words of encouragement are replaced with those of criticism and dislike that it becomes second nature and almost an integral part of the conversation 

Soon enough it becomes all too odd to have a conversation without at least one parental or family insult 

But I don’t like any of that 

And some families seem to have a lot of it 

From sisters, to aunts, mothers and grandmothers 

I can’t say I’ve heard it much from the male counterparts

However I can say that I know understand how some people just drift away 

It comes down to putting yourself first 

It comes down to knowing that conversations can be better, great in fact when the words entertained are those of good thought and kind sayings

It comes down to understanding that not everyone will understand this 

And sometimes you may be the only one 

Which leaves you with the choice ‘do you want to understand certain things alone with peace of mind or would you prefer to be surrounded by people to feel as if they are constantly throwing dirt at you?’…

Bionica 

Basically

The year is 2020 and I’m registered as a voter for a political party 

A party that I chose when I was 18 and feel that currently has little importance because more than anything the choice of a party can do more to separate than to unite us as humans 

I feel that so many people get caught up in titles and all the comes with it forgetting what really matters 

Using your position in leadership to make things better for everyone 

But this can be forgotten on the political path and I’m just so over the slander 

Who cares what the opponent did or didn’t do, why can’t a person talk about what they have done and are continuing to do 

I don’t recall the first political that is talking about saving the forests which give us air to breathe 

Without said air no human can live yet this is pushed to the back burner if that 

I don’t understand how it is that in 2020 it has been so hard to keep vital things 

Like a clean ocean without garbage so that marine life can thrive and fisherman can have something to fish that isn’t polymer related 

In regards to health, why are insurance companies not providing women with breast pumps but giving men viagra?

Guess what, the ones that need the pumps give birth to the ones that need the viagra 

Why not give them some extra loving when they need it so 

Why aren’t we providing women with fertility treatment to be covered by their insurance 

Why aren’t insurance companies helping women freeze their eggs?

I’m so over women getting the end of the stick that is dusty and literally pointless

The source of life is fighting to breathe and it makes no sense 

When and why has this come to be so?

The basic things that we should be doing are being ignored?

The earth is fighting because humans are mistreating it and then only a select few are running around to un do all the damage

The bees should not be in danger 

Humans were fine before pesticides before and the bees were better off

Fruits in vegetable didn’t need to grow into supersize versions to meet supply and demand 

Humans just need to understand patience and the basic rule of keep your living temple sacred 

Keep the earth clean-beaches, rivers, the polar bears alive because they are cute and cuddly 

Keep planting trees because we need the air to breathe 

Keep the earth from warming up because I’m over the heatwaves with boob sweat and sticky thighs

The whales shouldn’t be eating garbage and we shouldn’t be feeding it to them 

I don’t know about karmic law but what about the law of life-be good and be kind 

It’s that simple 

Putting good things out there 

And having human decency and consideration for others without making it difficult 

The year is 2020 and with all the tools acquired it seems that we still have so much to learn 

Basically we should be loving, tolerant and accepting regardless of sex, belief, nationality… 

Let humans be amazing and don’t make basic needs impossible

ie don’t pollute the water because then what are you going to drink after?

Just saying, it’s not about the party that divides us but should be about the race that unites us

Bionica