For a birthday in her 20s a friend gave her a special card
A card that read ‘keep following your heart and everything will turn out the way it’s supposed to’ which come to think about it, she may have forgotten to do
The heart is the best GPS, but she seemed to have forgotten that along the way to this present day
In the card her friend wished success and happiness and that her dreams would come true
That was the year that she met them
The loves that would mark her life forever
First she met 1 shortly after asking G-d that the man that was to come into her life would see her looking ok, because if he liked her with her hair a mess, then he would like her for real
She also asked for someone that was her age and as G-d would have it, 1 came into her life
It was a surprise to her, one that she welcomed although unsure of what to do and what to say
She felt shy all of a sudden and couldn’t get the words out to say much to him, but at the same time she wished that 1 would be initiate the conversation
Instead what went on between the two was a silent exchange of energy in which words were not needed
It was all in the way they looked at each other and the comfort that they felt
For the first time ever, she felt like staying and she couldn’t believe it
How was it that this was finally happening to her
Moments of sweetness in which the two were together, holding one another cheek to cheek
But she was overthinking and at the moment in which he was going to turn his face to kiss her she moved
She thought about the people around them and not about the moment being lived
Perhaps within their language without words it was lost that she had romanticized a relationship and how things should really happen
Perhaps if she would have told him he would have listened and would have done things differently
But she didn’t and maybe he got tired of trying
But she always kept on waiting
As she waited she met 2 who really felt for her but caught up in 1 she didn’t know what to do
Still she gave it a try without really giving all that she could
Thinking of 1 she lost out on 2 but she learned that both would have a hold on her ever flowing love
She learned that with 1 she needed more confidence in the person she was, is and would become
With 2 she learned to take the present moment for what it is and live it
From both she learned that love is beautiful and best when shared
She has learned to be in the moment, give the best of herself even if the other is not prepared
Because in her best is where the truth of her love stands
Beginning with the self and flowing to the rest
-Bionica
10:56pm
