As a kid she really wasn’t sure what love was
She didn’t give it much thought
She remembered that her parents would fight and sometimes her dad would go away
But he would always go back home
And she knew that made her happy
One of her greatest joys was to see him climbing up the stairs to greet her as she stood in the doorway
But that was at home…
Then on the novelas people would be so happy when they got married
It was supposed to be a day in which two people celebrated being one another’s ever after
To live in love through and through
Yet on some episodes people that were married didn’t really like each other
And they would be miserable because they didn’t love their partner
Their true love was someone else
Sometimes single and other times in an unhappy relationship because they didn’t marry for love
Stealing glances and sometimes forbidden affection from the one they did love
She couldn’t understand why it was all so complicated
Why would someone choose to be with someone that wouldn’t make them happy?
Not just on tv–but in real life
It seemed to happen all the time
There was even a trend in which people had divorce parties!
Imagine that, celebrating that you were no longer married to the person that was supposed to be the love of your life and make you happy
She wasn’t sure what to make of it all
And once in conversation with a co-worker she remembered saying how she could not be able to be with someone whom she didn’t love
Her co-worker averted her eyes at this, but didn’t say anything
Could it be that her co-worker had married someone that she didn’t love just like in the novelas?
Maybe, but she didn’t seem miserable like in the novelas
But then again she never went out with the couple to really see how things were and the feelings there or lack there of
She thought about it and what it came down to
Love had or simply always had been an option
Yes, an option like choosing to have salt on your fries or even a side of ketchup
Or maybe deciding on the soda with the meal that they would really enjoy but then saying no because it’s not good for them and so they will have a sad meal of fries with seltzer
But love is more than that
It’s what makes someone’s eyes shimmer as they talk about something they enjoy
It’s that warmth in the heart when they hug someone they really like being around
It’s that sigh of relief that comes after sitting down when you had a busy day
It’s that feeling of being so happy that you are holding the hand of the person that you can be with forever as you lean into them
It’s so many things that are good and yet people choose to do with out it
Some people knowingly enter a relationship with someone that will never make them happy
Perhaps because they know they will have a certain security or they think that person will be a good parent
But is that enough?
Is it enough to marry someone with whom you find yourself imaging another when you’re getting physical?
Is it enough to know that you didn’t marry the love of your life and wonder every other day what your life may have been like if you would have said yes to love?
It was all too much for her
She didn’t care to be with someone just because society made it a sin to be single and happy
It’s sad how for some it’s so much better to be married with children and not even enjoying the life they live
It’s like living in Lego Land, it all looks so cool and fun but in reality it’s just plastic that gets cold in the winter and hot in the summer and isn’t very comfortable at all
But this wasn’t anything new
Not to society, not to the world
But she wondered how & why someone could choose to be unhappy when they didn’t have to
Was it really worth living for the views and thoughts of someone else?
Not to her, definitely not to her…
-Bionica
