Feliz

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His birthday is in less than a week

It's rather exciting

He's a special man who loves me so much

When ever I need someone to talk to, he listens

His dad is awesome too

I'm pretty sure he loves me, because I can call him at random hours

and I know it's ok

Because of Him, I keep warm at night

Because of Him, I see the sun during the day

He's just so special to me

He keeps me strong

So for his birthday, I will show how much I love Him

Happy Birthday Jesus!

from me to you because I ❤ you

and you love me too

btw he loves you too!

-B.

A Toast

You know, I had thought about asking you

"what would happen if I asked you to kiss me?"

Would you look at me and lean in?

Would you stroke my cheek and kiss my lips?

Would you hold my hand and smile?

Would you bring my hand to your lips and keep it there a while?

And then I didn't even need to ask you

It happened oh so fast that I was thrown off

I was surprised and didn't know what to do

But I'm glad that it was you

And I'm pretty sure that you are too!

To kisses and holding hands

To sharing my lips with you!

-B.

Snow!

As a kid, snow was so much

It meant playing outside

Making snow angels

and no school!!!

As an adult, snow is so much

It means plowing the driveway

Salting the sidewalk

Scraping the car window

and driving to work in snow!!!

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missing school to stay home

because of snow

Somehow we forget about

the snow balls thrown

because of snow

Somehow we forget about

so much we had

because of snow

We grow up to see it

heavy, falling so different

We grow up to see it

as stress added to our day

When in reality it's natures way

So take your day and make it a snowday

Laugh like you did when you were little

Play like you did when you were little

Forget to worry like you did when you were little

Make your snow day your happy day!

-B.

Happy Cumple to You

Happy Birthday to You!

Yes dear, this day is for you

and all good things I wish upon you

Have cake and be merry

and if you like go for some sherry

So I tell this to you

Happy Birthday to You

Happy Birthday to You

and thank you for being You!

-B

You & Me

I loved you and you loved me

It was always us three

Then somehow things changed and to the three were added three

To those were added four and then too many more

It made us see that somehow we just couldn't be

As hard as it was, afterwards I was able to breathe

I was able to see that maybe it wasn't for me

The hands of time wiggled their fingers and here we are today

We each went our own way and somehow found each other to simply say "hey"

Well "hey" is really all I can say

I do not begrudge or want to judge you and it's not that I found someone new

Or perhaps I did, and that person is myself

Somehow I found my health one which has come with much stealth

I see things differently now

I see things clearly now

Sometimes we can love and love

But sometimes it's better to do it from afar

To spare us the fear that later brings tears

So I must tell you now that after so much, it's best to not retouch

The band-aid is gone, but the scar is still there

It's a reminder of what went where

It's telling me ‹don't go there›

It's simple, just be

-B

Best Friend

The best friend a girl could ever have

The person that's jealous of what she has

This she already knows and does not care

The best friend a girl could ever have

The person that tells her "honey you look hideous"

The person that will make her so very delicious ;->

The best friend a girl could ever have

The person will take her to a club and ask to her find a hub

This she does with a smile on her face making sure to pick some doll face

The best friend a girl could ever have

The person will help her find her prince charming

The person will give her some type of warning to let her know that he's a toad

This person will go with her back to square 1 to make sure that she finds the 1

The best friend a girl could ever have will call her loca with love

The best friend a girl could ever have will want to swap heels with her

The best friend a girl could ever have is that one whom she has loved since day one

The best friend a girl could ever have is one who is loca along with her

-B.

Pictures

There is this picture I like to see

It is of people down at the sea

The night had come & started to hum

The people decided to huddle together and capture the moment

1-2-3 now look at me!

Yet there was one there who did not care to look at the camera or even stare

Instead his face followed his gaze to the girl

The girl he he only met moments earlier & had yet to speak to

There was something about her that called out to him

He wanted to know what she thought of him

He wanted to know if perhaps, she would take a chance on him

All this, he did not know

And he was not afraid to let it show

For all the world to see he let her know what a gentleman he could be

He looked at her and said nothing,

letting her know that she was something

-B.

Thanksgiving

Darlings I would like to wish you all a very lovely ThanksGiving full of the Lord's blessings

❤

-B.

4 Min

In 4 min we fell in love

In 4 min I was your dove

You spoke to me

You held on to me

You let me see how sweet you could be

That's how I knew that you were for me

In 4 min we fell in love

-B.

Diferencias

Hay un mundo de diferencias entre tu y yo.

Nos desahogamos de maneras distintas, pero lo hacemos igual.

Solo que la manera de expresión entre ambos es así de diferente.

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Llorando un río se van con la corriente esas penas. Pienso y aveces hablo, con Él, siempre con Él.

Para ti se hace mas fácil contemplar los dolores a solas. Con una botella y aveces con un cigarro. Subes las música para que tus pensamientos también se ahoguen, pero cuando te duermes corren las lagrimas.

Lloras como yo.

Lloro como tu.

Pero al tomar, tus problemas se mantienen. No desenvuelven ni tampoco se envuelven. Tan solo se mantienen como esa botella que vuelve.

Pensando en ti

-B.

Hmm...

There is a song about a book on love, okay so there many songs on a book or books on love.

If I had my own book on love, what would it say? What would I write? Would I or should I be the author? After all, there is the way we see ourselves and then the way that the world sees us.

What would my friends decide to write on my behalf?

What would yours say? Would you even want to have a book on your love life published? Why and for whom? For you to look at on rainy days so that you can have a laugh or this way to share some scary stories to annoy someone lol

Who can say? who would know?

Just questions that the world would love to know

-B.

Dates!

So I haven't really dated in a while. Ok so I don't ever really date––and I mean EVER!!!! But what am I going to do? Go out! Obviously. But what if I don't usually go out and I am just a closet nerd that likes to stay home watching telenovelas all day and day dream about kooky stuff like the perfect guy with perfect hair and some really good pizza. Random I know but that's just me.

Random thoughts have occurred to me about actually dating. Speed dating has been suggested and then I think to myself "am I desperate? Should I be desperate?" I really don't know right now. Then there is also the incognito form of dating which is, are you ready? ONLINE DATING!!!! That's what the commercials advertise day & night. Join match.com and find someone for you or try eharmony...

With online dating there are lesser worries because for some reason people seem to drop their guards when chatting with a person that they don't know and doesn't know them . It's like people put their hopes in and inhibitions out to have a conversation with a person that like them has expectations of finding their media naranja and falling in love así de bonito.

Think about it, don't you remember way back when it was all about aol profiles and dare I say it, when you were in the 7th grade and would aim your friends as soon as you got out of school and your homework was done (because your mom would not let you go online if you didn't ;-), you would go on your friends profiles and jump to other ones from that. Profiles in which people put up their flag of origin to leave no room for doubt of their ethnicity and pride. This would be followed by a description of themselves and automatically your teenage self would just swoon to the stories you were building in your head. Oh and somehow this person would know a friend of a friend of yours and you would find out that the guy is super cute and you would be super interested only to find out that your shyness would let you go no further than a possible smiley in an instant message you told your friend to send.

Then we arrive at the present where there are other forms of looking up different interests without actually having to physically find them, some of which guarantee to find you someone or your money back. (or at least I think they would–––not too sure) I wonder, how does it work? What if the person after a date or two says "you know what I don't like you (and you he barely knows you) and I want my money back!" What happens? Does the person get the money back from the company? Can the date bill be turned in for a full refund? lol

These are just thoughts really, but seriously what does it take for me to go on a date?

-B.

Oh just so

Ooh how it flows

How she glows

When she walks

That dress talks

When she turns those girls yearn

for a love such as that

With her gaze he is amazed

For those lips he longs a taste and his dark eyes smile from down the aisle

It's love, like that of a dove

white and pure to make it sure

Xs & Os is what they show

Always make sure, that yours is just so

-B.

Chapter to follow–––

Our dear dear Juliana is just about ready to tell her friend Red what is really in her head, but every time she tries Yellow flashes ahead. 

Yellow who although with boo, 

still has a thing for "you know who" and Juliana just doesn't know what to do.

Now tell me, what would you do?

Do tell, you…

-B. 

Chapter Five: Getting ready to dive!

A single cone alone, Juliana. Red with his friend & Yellow with hers.

Just as it had happened, she disappeared. Red's friend was no longer more, a thought of a distant past that didn't last. 

Juliana thought wow! It's just so "wow"–things resumed their order and Red re-visited his friend just like before. This time more was shared between Red & Juliana, but keep your belts on because kisses weren't part of it. Secrets for sure and even hidden tears. Bearing their truths to one another their hearts had been hurt. For different reasons all too similar, the two simultaneously felt the same pain. 

In all this Yellow still with her friend had hoped to keep her hands on Red & Juliana but was just too caught up. It is supposed to be natural when you have a "friend" or so I hear and sometimes fear. 

Red for Juliana & Juliana for Red. Suggested by Yellow herself who did so with a not so happy face. Rather scary actually if you could see, furrowed brows in a not so nice sea. 

Then it was when Red had said, "not yet, not now–it's just too much for me to see" and at the sound of this Juliana thought "oh woe is me". He doesn't want to see, he doesn't want me. After so many days of holding me, he is now free but not for me. 

Juliana resigned and thought once again, he saw her and she saw him. There was a look in his eyes that could not be denied. She has to tell him, she just has to.

sometime to try

-B.

Chapter Four: Wanting More

Yellow has gone, and now Red too!

Our friend Juliana is with her feelings to ponder what she is thinking and what she is feeling. Him, she has a thing for him. How did she not see it before? There really is something more. In a quest to find him, she finally did and a little bit more. 

He was different this Red, not the same as before. He had a new friend now, something different and more. 

Juliana believed it but not as happy. She understood of course that he was not there for her, that Red. 

It was something she kept from Yellow who was in her own little world where all that mattered would be her and her friend. 

Juliana, thinking and thinking how it just happened. She finalized her feelings for Red to find out that he had someone else. 

Oh fiddle dee dee is there a pod for this pea?

-B.

Chapter Three: 3+1-2=you

Yesterday Yellow met her match and Red & Juliana were just Red & Juliana.

Red & Juliana a match to be lit. The two bonded while Red became intense hence the flirting of Juliana. He loved and she fanned it. With Yellow ousted of the picture due to her new boo, Juliana & Red spent it alone...Just the two of them.

It was great and Red would let Juliana know that there was something there. 

He tried to kiss her once, Juliana you know. She was bemused with sleep and just slipped her cheek. Nothing, nothing at all she thought. 

It happened again, they were alone and the temperature rose. Cold water took care of that. 

Then Red called less & Juliana was Juliana. She missed him. The way he would call her in the night or try to sneak a kiss here. Ah she missed him. 

A new realization to her, but not to the folks outside because everyone knew something was a brew. 

Oh Red, where are you?

Looking, what do you see?

-B.

Chapter Two: Yellow so DON'T go!

Previously we left off in a color hanger. Yellow was introduced as the stop for Juliana's possible declaration of feelings for Red. 

So as Juliana often thought about Red, she then realized or remembered that at some point in time, Yellow had mentioned possible feelings for Red. It was something that Yellow said rather suddenly while Juliana was physically away from the colors. She thought about it, and then not much came about. Red is an attractive man/color and quite the fellow . Besides, then Juliana was into dancing & not the color. She just saw him as her friend. 

Once back home, the matter of <3

Yellow told Juliana that she kept Red from hanging out with her because she wanted to see how it was just for them!!!!!

Alert! Alert! ALERT!!!!

Yellow is mentioning major feelings such as she would consider things with Red a not before touched topic. 

It's getting hot.

Give Juliana some water to wash down the news, but it's ok because she still sees him as just a hue. 

Spring came & Yellow set her glow on someone else all different from the color of Red.

Together they got mellow and a relationship set sail.

Primary, not secondary

-B. 

Chapter One: A love story?

I dunno, just may be.

So it all began once upon a time way back, when school was fun. Remember those days? Meetings were held & things were felt... Ah "the good ole days"––well any who-someone was bedazzled then or so it seemed. But perhaps, before remembering what was let's concern ourselves with what currently is. 

Meet your protagonists of the story, Yellow, a fiery character sometimes pleasant, Red the hot pepper of the story & Juliana the sweetest princess. 

At the moment the trio shares a current triangle of hearts in which the dominos are tapping one another to meet. 

Our Red is a dashing young fellow that may or may not know that facts of the story. He is a man of course and hence thinks things quite differently. 

Yellow, a young lady of her own stature can be rather willful and as I said before, sometimes nice. Juliana a sweet sweet girl is smittenly hot and often thinks things way too much. 

Moving on with the story, one fine evening Juliana woke up and decided that Red was looking handsome in his shade of rouge and that like the blood in her veins, he was for her. Why not? A nice girl like her and a nice color like him make an awesome couple, they are the perfect match of a crayon box name.

Red however enjoyed to flirt back and forth with his Juliana whose games became a little more as she thought him so often. Still, there was this factor there that made her stop. Yellow! Yellow amarillo Jaune was Juliana's pause. 

color me pretty 

-B.

No es para tanto

Relax, I know you do love me

I know you don't understand me

I have my reasons for what I do

I have my reasons for what I say

Sometimes you should ask

Sometimes you should think 

It's just the way it is

A fachada to you

A mask to me

Yo me entiendo & wish you would too

Pero no somos magos 

Perhaps one day you will know

It's just the way I am 

Relax because I love you 

-B.

Desde Aqui

From my window out here there can be much to see

First are the vines that creep and crawl  around 

Then is abuela's garden with a few stray flowers

Some are pink and very bright at that 

They stand out amongst so much dirt and give the garden a song

If there is some breeze they will dance but that they usually save for the night

After that is the street

Wide one both sides separated in between 

With bricks that have been painted red surrounding a bed for the trees 

The tops of the beds are school bus yellow and serve as the tag bases for the neighbors playing tag

The merengue blasts and the whole barrio hears it

From whose house Rosita? or Maybe it's the boys

Whoever it is it doesn't seem to matter because those girls haciendo oficios sweep just fine to the words of Raulin's Nereeeydaaaa…

With no shoes they walk around making sure they won't miss a spot

They scrub hard and good too keep the house looking spotless

Rene swings by on his bike with the yani's singing his song that is almost a rap

con queso, de pollo, con carne también it's sheer brilliance what he does taking those tunes for food

The girls stop their work and hand him their coins of 5 pesos each

They munch and chew and close their eyes

Letting the afternoon sun catch their faces 

Now their thirsty after all that harina 

Leticia gets up and skips to the colmado asking Felix por un redrock

The cups were ready and soon get filled

With that raspberry fizzing that chills and yet tickles

ah how sweet it is 

Sweet indeed is the view from my window

-B.

Here

In this chapel we were friends 

we heard our thoughts go around silently 

we made each other laugh 

with my voice the opera was home

with your voice the giggles were here

our eyes twinkled and we knew it was funny 

our thoughts were the same 

we held hands and prayed

you were my friend and I am still yours

I miss you sometimes 

I miss you today 

my bestfriend from one day 

from one day to a life time our lives became intertwined 

your mother

she knew mine 

before I knew you 

My mother

she knew you 

before you were you 

what happened?

will we ever go back?

to sit in those pews where we prayed for our sins 

where a pecado wasn't fish 

and a song is still glory 

where my friend was you 

so many a retreat and you made it far

you got closer to Him 

you got closer to them (your OLR & MLR friends)

M. did say OLR MLR I care who you are

lols 

for jokes that we only know 

in these halls 

in these halls we spent our years

from babies to ladies

our feet sped on the way to Spanish

buenos días señoritas said Mrs. S

buenos días señora 

presente señora

do you even remember the «Amigo» song and how after too many «ma-ma-mas» I just hit my head

it was kind of funny

you laughed

I laughed

now I go back to these halls and think not of an infraction but of how we have changed

what if it were all the same 

what if we were still the same?

sometimes wondering

-B.

La menta por si acaso

O M to the G! Que cosa me paso a mi 

estaba en camino allí cuando me atacaron los nervios

yo sin comer (desayunarme no podía–entienda que es una travesía)

sentía que me derretía & I would pop those mentas una tras la otra

era lo único seguro que tenía

para por si acaso me las lleve to stay all day fresh 

me comí una en el carro & después cuando salía de el 

la siguiente me la comí en el edificio mientras esperaba & las próximas seguían entrando cada par de minutos por ansiedad y por hambre

ya no podía, con tantas mentas pensaba que iba ver verde ya que el sabor era ese de spearmint pintado un " minty green"

ya no creo que las vuelva a ver 

antes de salir me tocara llevarme algo de apretar 

como esas cosas de masilla para el estrés

si se me pega el hambre, mira a mis manos y buscar un chicle

de todos modos le aseguro que que el aliento será fresh!     

-B

Individual Me

I am me
I am myself
different from thee, different from she
Comparisons will do no good
I am still me
Unchanging unless I too prefer
Unyielding unless I am ready to go

You don't have to love it
You don't have to understand it
You don't have to love me
Just accept Me

-B

LOVE

The frequencies of love can always be caught, but never understood.
Think about it, it's a whirlwind that takes us all but can never be seen.
When in love, you think that it's sweet and the best feeling of all–yet you can't describe it. You can't exactly pin-point if its as good as letting that chocolate melt in your mouth with your eyes closed and your taste buds relishing, or as good as feeling the sun beat down on your face on a day that the breeze felt is a little chilly.

There are other times when it's like sipping something cool that feels just about awesome after beads of sweat have appeared on your forehead and dare I say it, yes ladies–that invisible mustache on your upper lip!
It's weird because you can feel like you can't be with out it and you feel it in all sorts of ways and towards all many different things. You can be in love with yourself because you're having a "cute day" and don't care at all about the frizziness of your best friend, or the fact that you got sugar for your coffee, but nothing to stir it with. It's just a day that's for you and you feel great.
The sweet kind of love in which cake is total bliss and just the simple batter is enough to make your toes curl, but you can love it so much that you have just had enough and can't stand to see it again. Too much cake, too much love.
But then there is that kind of which you try to deny very much to yourself, but is apparently obvious to everyone else. There is a special someone who gives you the eye but you don't realize it. It's taken on your behalf as a simple gesture between friends, but the pictures don't lie and with so much closeness there must be something going on. Yet when you think about it and giving sweet ♥s
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Retail Joy

There is joy in retail. Ha ha ha, well that is funny. Is there really? 

I mean, I guess it is fun. It really does have it's moments in which you are glad to be part of a sales team. For example, when you get your discount and get to use coupons on top of that–it makes you feel good when you shop.  

Then again, there are those days when you're trying to make your numbers and some people just aren't being too helpful. It is your duty to talk to the customers and make sure that you offer them the best things out there but sometimes they just refuse. You approach them to make a good offer and hear "sorry, but I'm in a rush…I don't have time right now"–um ok, but then what are you doing wasting your time here & walking extremely slow like your contemplating what to do next? That's my question. 

One day I had this lady that tell me she had to be somewhere and was already late. Well what does that have to do with me? She's the one that waited to the last minute and made a stop to shop. 

Oh, and I love it when I'm told "I'm just browsing" (because I do that too) but then someone told me "I don't have any money", then what are you doing shopping? Take yourself someplace where the sales people are not going to harass you is all I'm saying. 

Luego you have one customer that is so very kind and gives you a moment of their time to receive all those awesome sales…and wonders how come no other person told them about them before, well I think it's because of previous experiences of being ignored. Customers just keep on walking and shake their heads "no" or pretend that they cannot hear the associate speaking to them. 

(If your laughing it's because you know this is true and have done this also.)

Just be nice when you shop, because when you're done you get to go home but the sales associate has to stay there with other people who don't want to be there and perhaps get ignored by oh so many customers who don't want them to do their job and then get mad when they don't. 

It really isn't easy, but someone has to do it.

Shop wise & be kind. 

-B

De Calle

De calle yo me fui for the Dominican festival. A hot day of 78º plus which made it great for showing a little leg ;-) just because I hear that some martians like that lol So the logical wear for such a thing would be something casual like shorts with your elaborate Dominican t-shirt or even tank top with an airbrushed flag. But I must say, that apparently the new thing is for young people to dress cutesy for the day regardless of the event–at least the ladies. It was all flats and tights with oversized bags and some pretty shirt at an event where should be comfortably cute (not cutely uncomfortable). I mean really ladies, this is not a day at the mall with your girlfriends in which you would scope out some dude. 

Oh and it seems like all girls called each other, making it clear that the in thing is to have the top half of your hair blonde and the rest brown enchumbao with gel & mousse to make it so crispy that you could hear the effects of "snap, crackle, pop".

Of course, this is the apparent fad for today's teens because everyone there was in high school or at least appeared to be in that part of the park where the awesome DJ held his stage. 

It was all about boys with braces and girls looking cute. 

The other "fun" stage was for the parents of these high schoolers who brought their children to mingle with others of their own age as they would laugh at the unfunny jokes made by those locutores who talk way too much. 

So where does that leave the college students? Where were they supposed to mingle and peek at the occasional and hopeful bit of eye candy? The answer to that would have to be "in the middle" where there was an array of unattended motorcycles whose owners just walked around, helmet in hand looking cool...Mostly martians of course although there was one particular case of a girl in a  vespa, pink at that– which may have been looking for a riding buddy. 

But yes, it was an event designed for local teenagers whose overactive hormones encouraged them to carryout PDA (public displays of affection) oh how exciting!

While we who are soo over that stage think "omg, was that me?"

Maybe!

You gotta love it

-B

Is it a Routine to Dream?

In life, there are things we want to do and there are things that we must do. Such as daydreaming of a life and things that we want to have while at work or even at a traffic light. They are just random things that flutter in our heads such as the desire to one day bungee jump and conquer a fear or in some different cases to kiss a complete stranger with out thinking about it and just going for the moment. 

There are goals that we have for ourselves but sometime never set and just dream about achieving. Yet what is really the point of thinking when you aren't even going to do? Is it to just process and analyze? Do we have these thoughts in bubbles set up in a pinball machine in our minds to which we play a game to everyday deciding which risk to take, always choosing the less "dangerous" one? Perhaps...

But if we were to set up goals for ourselves everyday, things would be more fun and routines would be less predictable. It really isn't all that hard. We have more than enough time during the day that we spend idly doing nothing, just daydreaming. 

What if I set a goal for myself everyday? One of different things to do and some sort of consequence to perhaps induce myself to do it even more. Something or things that would be good for me and fun like taking up a hobby that's new or even actually completing things that are not. 

I think that it happens often to more people (not just me) that start something that they may want to do and then after a few short moments & tries it's over and back to the routine. To the routine of beginning things that will not be finished but only half done and never thought out. 

When we daydream, it's all the way–something continuous that we like to pick up. When we work, we just pile on more, something continuous that we don't want to finish.

What goals should I set for me? Something different to do everyday. A project that will keep me learning and let me reveal different things to myself.

How about that to live? To live and not just do things to get by, like eating just to eat in the mechanical form of chewing, but to actually savor that which I do and enjoying. 

Should it be a reto that I should set up for myself? What suggestions do you have that I do? 

It could be things that may be added to a routine, but a little bit more enriching to help me learn. Learn of new things that are and may be. 

Merrily merrily, is life really a dream?

-B

Have it your way?

Someone gets upset with me out of the blue because I am expected to help out and fork over the money. No prob I can put it down, but then when I offer, it's' denied as if it were a ridiculous offer. Then why bring it up even?

I understand that graduation was months ago, but that doesn't mean that I haven't done anything. I have made up my mind about something and would like to do it. There is a job that I am holding up to right now that I have no problem with. 

Sure going to an agency may sound key (to you), but it's not what I want. It's not a real job, but a real reel in which I would and can be thrown off into all these directions. Unstable directions that may cause me to loose myself a little which is not what I want. It isn't stable, but more yo-yo like as it is something that fluctuates from one day to another and requires a person to be very limber. 

Listen, I don't feel like bringing my legs up to my ears, while my hands hold my knees so that I can type with my toes. (I have seen that e-mail about that girl that does that in some office while wearing one of those black & something, tights dance costumes) 

What I have is as good as any and I am not complaining. Granted I can be out and about somewhere else right now, but I'm not and I don't mind. So then why do you?

I can tell you tidbits of my plan right now, it's my plan that I know and understand–and also am still working on ;-> Just relax and take what you need and let everything go to the breeze.

Go catch them Zzzz

-B. 

Flow after-school

When we go to school, we do it with the hopes that someday soon we will get ourselves a fascinating job that will pay us money we never had. Something that requires us to dress like it's important and way more than "just a day at the office".

We go through ups and downs, many being downs during our collegiate years in which we think about our lack of money and how come we don't have any. It is because of the fact that what my cousin once told me is still very true "these are the poorest years of you life"–no lol. And of course they are, how could they not be when your a student full time struggling through 5 classes (6 if you're a trooper) while making sure that you have money to buy those energy boosters to keep you going when you have that paper due in 7 hours, plus there is a party every Thursday. It's ALWAYS college night on Thursday!

Oh and on top of that, you must be able to buy that over priced hoodie from the school bookstore to show that you have school spirit and save on a few outfits by just leaving it on in class so that no one will see that you really aren't wearing the latest fashions (or that you haven't done laundry in a week–maybe two).

But yes, those are the woes of a student. A student who is full of hope that one day all of the above will pay off, just like those meal plans that must be included when you dorm. 

Then the day comes when your so excited to graduate and splurge on a dress and even a keg because your friends are coming over, and its YOUR COLLEGE GRADUATION!!! A few weeks pass by and you start to look for work because your low on cash and your parents are already nagging you about it if they aren't telling their friends that your going to get "this job making this money…" It's normal and it happens. Part of life, regardless of the fact that you are a little clueless on what it is that you really want to do and who you are as a person. This is where that "finding yourself" business kicks in and you realize that they weren't physically lost or disoriented from where they were standing, just a little bit unsure of their life. 

Well, now is that time and on top of that, those six months are passing from whence you graduated and Sallie Mae is at your door with an 8% interest rate that just keeps going like the energizer bunny when you can't even write a check that fast. This also has to do with you NOT having the money right now either, but its ok because you can get a deferment to pay it off in 8 years like if it were a house for more than double of what it was originally. 

But I guess, that's what happens when you don't have the cash flow to work with it, a cash flow that you expected to have after studying so hard and waiting those 4-5 years to receive those black calligraphed letters with your name and the word diploma just a few lines away. 

Sigh…the dreams of the student and the work of the graduate. 

I guess that saving during high-school would have been an excellent idea, only that we began at fourteen and didn't really think such a thing would be needed. 

Well, work's knocking someone's door and they must be excited. 

Can you hear it? 

-B.

Listen & Read

Some advice to you pre-collegiate students. So this coming fall you will be freshmen at the school of your choice, your parents choice, or that of your SAT scores. Well congratulations, you are in for quite a ride. Do not, I repeat DO NOT be alarmed, you are in for what they say is the best time of your life, and they are not lying. 

However there are a few tidbits of information that I would like to share with you because it's always good to share, it let's you know that someone cares or at least tries to, 

1. Do try new things 
2. Don't be shy and say hello to that new cutie across the hall or across the classroom, remember that rejection is a part of life and in that case there are always more fish in the sea
3. Don't smoke just to look cool, it's a stinky habit and there are other people out there like me who love their lungs and want to breathe easy–don't mess it up for the rest of us
4. Do not join in the litter chain and spread garbage all over campus, it sucks and is not a cute trend to partake in 
5. Do go in undecided, there is nothing wrong with not know what it is that you want to do, soon enough you will make up your mind and be glad that you got your GE's out of the way and its a great way to save time because you wouldn't be changing your major every other semester 
6. This goes well with #5, but don't be afraid to change your major if you already go in with something set, it's really ok
7. Do try the dorming experience or something of the like, it's part of college and it's part of growing
8. If you can DO go study abroad, it will be an experience that you remember forever, kind of like that first kiss that you wish to repeat, or prefer to forget hehehe, it's like that ; )
9. Don't be afraid to take out student loans if your short on money for classes, because sometimes you just have to 
10. DONT take out student loans to buy clothes and stereo systems that you don't need and will hardly use because it's a waste of money and not very smart–go to school naked if you have to (j/k) or shop at a thrift shop and make it vintage!
11. Don't slack on your credit card payments if you have one, having good credit is important so if there is no need to swipe for something you can't pay now, don't get it
12. Looking good is great, but excess spending is not! I must if I must, reiterate the importance of spending your money wisely, if you want use your debit card, it won't build up your credit, but it won't put it in the negatives either and STAY AWAY from those glamorous loans with high interest rates that you know you aren't going to use for books
13. Ladies you are beautiful yes, but don't make yourselves gullible, you are freshmen, of course those older cuties are going to tell you that you look good and what have you, don't fall into their trap, save yourself the heartache and have good sweet & clean fun
14. Gentleman try out for those sports that you were so good at in high school, they can foster your future careers
15. Join all of the clubs possible even if you only end up liking one, this is how you build your connections, meet people and experience college
16. Try to find an on campus job even if the rate is minimum wage, you should be having fun and studying, not working to get rich–that's what the time after graduation is for, duh!
17. Call mom and tell her you love her if your dorming, she misses you 
18. Don't be afraid to go Greek, there is nothing wrong with being in a fraternity or sorority, just make sure that it's right for you and if you don't end up going on line to pledge, at least you tried
19. DO your homework it gives you more time to party hehe and make sure that your teachers know your name, this should be the number one thing you do because it is important and always comes in handy to have a good relationship with your teacher–more fun to grade you 
20. Go on www.ratemyprofessor.com and if they say that the professor is hard and you don't know him personally, don't take him because you will be kicking yourself later–the chili pepper is for hot professor, so you know
21. Be aware of the freshman 15 which is gained from all that college food, eat  healthy and be healthy–it's ok to have pizza for breakfast, just make sure that your in a good physical condition too
22. Make sure that you know where the health and wellness centers are, they can give free condoms, physicals and some even have HIV testing–WRAP IT BEFORE YOU TAP IT!!!!!!!!!
23. Sport your ipod from class to class, it keeps you awake and peppy & if your walking alone, you look super chic with colored earbuds and nice shades
24. The library is there for you to use, take advantage of all those goodies that your campus offers you and make sure you have interned before graduation,  makes job hunting easy 
25. Most importantly HAVE FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is college, you can't really do it over again
Love it because you love me 
-B. 

Parents

They don't really know what it is that you do in school, just that you are going for an education and should have probably already graduated–"what's taking you so long anyway?" 

Their hopes for you are to become a doctor, a lawyer or maybe even a teacher because it's a good title and something that they can brag to the ladies at the checkout counter from the five and dime. 

Term papers, research papers or interviews with transcriptions "what is that?" they muse while trying to figure out the purpose of you doing any of the like. 

When you feel like changing your major into something else, talk it over with your friends or even your teacher because your "supposed" student advisor will only tell you what classes you should take with out even asking to see if maybe you already took them. It's an appointment that must be made weeks in advance because of their busy schedule and when you get to the door, before you even knock there is a note that says "running late…" and when your advisor does show up she scribbles down your RAN number on a piece of paper and tells you she has to hurry to get through the line that is out the door. 

OK yeah, whatever!

You study and study knowing that its just something that you have to do although your parents really have no clue what it is that you do in school, but they expect you to get a job as soon as May comes and graduation is done. With out even your diploma in hand they tell you to go job hunting because the competition is fierce (yes fierce, not their choice of words, but mine–vocabulary 101 =p) and "what are you going to be doing home all day anyways?" 

Sure, sure, sure. Send off your students to look for jobs or better yet, try finding one for them in what has nothing to do with their field but tell them to take it anyways because they need "experience", yeah it doesn't matter what kind just as long as you have it. 

So does that mean that if someone went to school for accounting, they should work at the human resource office downtown because they can learn a lot from dealing with cranky people all day with the common denominator that they are unhappy. 

I don't know, call me crazy but I just think that perhaps there should be some sort of break in between for students to really figure out what it is that they want so as to major in such and then not have the pressure of their parents soon after telling them to get a job because after graduation is when we really ask ourselves what it is that we really want to do for the rest of our lives. But of course this is a forbidden topic with parents who can't remember what we majored in and then will say "than why didn't you take that instead?" 

Oh joy oh great! 

The life of the perpetual teenager who is no longer an adolescent but a young adult still going through the same issues, or so I guess.

Are you going through it too?

-B. 

That Kind…

There is this one person that I love

This one person that I have loved since my beginning

Without realizing it, this person became my hero and the pearl from my oyster

Granted that perhaps the pearl should have been I, but it didn't matter to me

I would have him be my pearl for always

It mattered little the wrongs he would did

The waves that were to sputter from my eyes would flow some other way, away from him…

An "I love you" there and an "I miss you" here would turn this peppy girl into silly putty for molding

Like chocolate in the summer I would melt–no matter how cold the winter

But it was all bad 

an expired love that could do me know good

It would bring anguish to know that it went so bad

No matter how I would try to coat it, there would be a tang of bitterness in the end

like an allergy, it was something bearable at first, yet soon enough everything around me would shatter and I would sit alone, trembling with fear

My chest would heave and my body would rock back and forth as I wondered "why? why? why doesn't he love me? what did I do?"

It's hard to admit that such could be so wrong for me

After that close bond that is supposed to hold us together 

Those jokes that I would tell him to which he would always laugh at, no matter how bad they were 

He laughed, yes he did laugh, but not at them– he laughed at me

At how gullible my nature was 

At the fact that he could manipulate me so well

Make me see things so differently and have me turn on the world

Perhaps he did love me

But not for a second more than he has loved himself 

I was just an instrument at the circus of his entertainment 

to benefit himself while others laughed at those buttons he pushed

Now it's my time to leave

to leave and not look back but forward to a world on my own

To a future with out you and with out heartache caused by the pounding of your mallet

A mallet which you held while grinning in my face making it seem like a simple joke

I will miss you and still love you

I might even think of you

But I cannot stay with you 

If something good is to come of all this, then I must go now 

I will not run because my mind is made up

You can tap my shoulder and I will close my eyes, but when my foot moves it will be to take a step forward and not look back

love?

-B. 

Just Go

I don't want to be stuck in a place I don't want to be

I don't want to move forward to get out of the place that I am 

I don't want to look and see what's out there

I need to be pushed and have my eyes opened 

I need to see what's around and what is to change 

I need to be pushed to run and not walk and get it before it goes

That's what I need to do

What about you?

-B

Going & Doing

OMG! Sometimes people can be a little grossera. For real–just because I am not going out with you and decide on being responsible for something does not mean you have to get all Judy Attitudey about it. Yes I can hear it right now "I am sorry. I didn't know that I was doing that" well you were and it sucks. Grow up and get over it man. It's over and now it's time to move on. 

Anyhow, on another note my fellow martian friends, this venetian girl from Venus (hehehe) would like to share that she has no interest in learning how to cook. No I absolutely don't, or at least maybe I didn't and you know what I am quite happy with such and have no problem with it. Granted that I shouldn't care if you do or don't have a problem with it, maybe it's because I like you. Sure…

Whatever.

All I am saying is that it's totally wrong and uncalled for to discriminate someone for their honesty in saying what they think and how they feel. I don't want to learn and and am COMPLETELY fine with cooking what I already know. 

Why does it have to be a big deal anyways? The takeout menus were created for a reason my friend(s). Believe you me, they can be and are quite helpful, just make sure that you have them on speed dial for faster service ; >

Pero, si, how is it possible that you my martian friend would over look a very hot venetian princess just because of her lack of culinary skills. It makes no sense and you know it. It could be that you were trying some of that psychology stuff and maybe it worked, relax I said that maybe it did, not for sure. 

Still I do not want to be patronized not wanting to know. What do I gain with such? Nothing really just being a stubborn person I guess whose logic is currently out of sorts but that's ok because in life, we must know when things are off and accept them as so before putting them back. 

So please take it as it is, a girl that for at least one day is happy with her decision regardless of the fact that you may find it odd. Try it sometime, it feels good even if you know that your wrong. After all the point is to at least know. 

Take it and love it

-B.

Date Me!

Tips on Dating a girl like me. 

Well for starters make sure that you have a love for nature because I like to eat grass. Yes all leafy things are good as long as they are not poisonous and cause you to have a rash like poison ivy. Rocks are good too every once in a while as they hold many important minerals. So go ahead and have a lick of the salty stone of your choice. 

Not exactly ready for that? Well how about something a little bit softer like paper? You can write on it if you want and eat your words or just swallow some napkins whole and clean up some very necessary stuff. 

Go ahead, I dare you! lol 

Be ready to embrace high pitched noises because I do get excited and am not afraid to voice it. Sometimes I can just screech for joy, but you will just have to love it. 

Don't hold back because if you want to taste or do something new why not go for it. Sand I will tell you is not exactly the best because it is rather grainy and does not dissolve in your mouth. Perhaps Oranges may be more fun to munch as they are safely edible as long as you don't eat the seeds. Remember they are for planting outsides not in your intestines!  It's very important to keep certain things where they belong. 

Oh and don't forget to smell good. Spritz on some natural lemon for a clean feeling and a zesty scent. If you want it to stick some Sprite might be your style but be prepared to have some ants crawling your way. 

Please do wear deodorant and don't go for that girly Secret stuff try some of the Avon roll ons instead they may be more for you. 

Do bring  me something sweet but flowers aren't the most yummy things to eat so chocolate will be fine. Make sure it's not a brownie because that means that I will be a little thirsty and I just want something sweet y no es para empalagarme. 

Dress nice and look cute, so keep the leaf suit from your birthday at home because it may be windy and we don't want to have too much exposure. 

I also hope that your ride isn't in the shop because my bike is currently not built for two and I prefer to lean back which I can't do while pedaling.  

Take your chance and give me a call

Your girl.

-B.

Woah!

Aaahhhhh!!!!!! There are no real monsters, but you need to stop. One day I am going to run away if you keep at this. 

When will you understand? The letter V is not my scarlet letter and you shouldn't make it one either. 

I am the way that I am and like it with out a problem. Your fascination with me the V ceases to amaze me however and the different strategies you try to come up with to try to get me lose it. Relax boy! Because just like that princess Robin Hood tried to do, my knickers are sealed under lock and key. 

Yes you hear/read right, under lock and key without a worry!

It's not that I am not normal and have no deseo, it's that I am quite aware and choose not to. 

I mean think about it, I have so much fun with dudes like you who try so hard to play locksmith and open up that it's clearly an easy choice. 

Keep keep driving them mad I say! 

Of course when one gets tired another one comes up thinking that he will do what no other has done. 

Yeah right keep walking locksmith and make sure you have the right key for the next chick who wants to lay your egg so you can be papi rooster!

But really though, back to you. Telling your friends and poking fun at it with me there! That just crossed the line. I can't believe you even did such and then embellish to exaggerate even more. 

That is why you can keep on waiting with your fresh mouth on some other damsel in distress whose just itching to be rescued and welcoming in womanhood. Get it together because your foul words are just stinking up the place and changing the combination to my lock. 

You will always wonder and want to know why I keep it and not understand how it is done. Those of my species are not wired like you and have no need for constant emptiness. It's a ride that comes to a stop leaving you breathless and then not wanting me until the need arises. Whoopdido for you and see how long you can stay up. 

Peace and love. 

-B.