But is it worth it to love?

 As a kid she really wasn’t sure what love was 

She didn’t give it much thought 

She remembered that her parents would fight and sometimes her dad would go away 

But he would always go back home 

And she knew that made her happy 

One of her greatest joys was to see him climbing up the stairs to greet her as she stood in the doorway 

But that was at home…

Then on the novelas people would be so happy when they got married

It was supposed to be a day in which two people celebrated being one another’s ever after 

To live in love through and through 

Yet on some episodes people that were married didn’t really like each other 

And they would be miserable because they didn’t love their partner 

Their true love was someone else 

Sometimes single and other times in an unhappy relationship because they didn’t marry for love 

Stealing glances and sometimes forbidden affection from the one they did love

She couldn’t understand why it was all so complicated

Why would someone choose to be with someone that wouldn’t make them happy?

Not just on tv–but in real life 

It seemed to happen all the time 

There was even a trend in which people had divorce parties!

Imagine that, celebrating that you were no longer married to the person that was supposed to be the love of your life and make you happy

She wasn’t sure what to make of it all 

And once in conversation with a co-worker she remembered saying how she could not be able to be with someone whom she didn’t love 

Her co-worker averted her eyes at this, but didn’t say anything 

Could it be that her co-worker had married someone that she didn’t love just like in the novelas?

Maybe, but she didn’t seem miserable like in the novelas 

But then again she never went out with the couple to really see how things were and the feelings there or lack there of 

She thought about it and what it came down to 

Love had or simply always had been an option 

Yes, an option like choosing to have salt on your fries or even a side of ketchup 

Or maybe deciding on the soda with the meal that they would really enjoy but then saying no because it’s not good for them and so they will have a sad meal of fries with seltzer

But love is more than that 

It’s what makes someone’s eyes shimmer as they talk about something they enjoy 

It’s that warmth in the heart when they hug someone they really like being around 

It’s that sigh of relief that comes after sitting down when you had a busy day 

It’s that feeling of being so happy that you are holding the hand of the person that you can be with forever as you lean into them 

It’s so many things that are good and yet people choose to do with out it 

Some people knowingly enter a relationship with someone that will never make them happy 

Perhaps because they know they will have a certain security or they think that person will be a good parent 

But is that enough? 

Is it enough to marry someone with whom you find yourself imaging another when you’re getting physical?

Is it enough to know that you didn’t marry the love of your life and wonder every other day what your life may have been like if you would have said yes to love?

It was all too much for her 

She didn’t care to be with someone just because society made it a sin to be single and happy 

It’s sad how for some it’s so much better to be married with children and not even enjoying the life they live

It’s like living in Lego Land, it all looks so cool and fun but in reality it’s just plastic that gets cold in the winter and hot in the summer and isn’t very comfortable at all 

But this wasn’t anything new 

Not to society, not to the world 

But she wondered how & why someone could choose to be unhappy when they didn’t have to 

Was it really worth living for the views and thoughts of someone else?

Not to her, definitely not to her…

-Bionica